- Meeting new people.
I love meeting people when it's one on one and in a comfortable setting. Since I have control over the setting (some hazy ether I can't be bothered to describe) and the number of people if I'm writing, this is an ideal way to discover a person. I can take the relationship as deep as I want to, though I prefer that most of them are intimate--I'd like to know everything! I don't feel like God creating beings to serve me; I feel as if I'm finding friends.
- Creating Entertainment.
This is not a lofty attainment, for sure, but who cares. I love finally reading what I finished (finishing is rare for me, so a rare treat) and enjoying it. I mean, I hope that's the experience others have reading my stories so a good indicator is my enjoyment, right? Laughing at my own jokes sometimes makes me self-conscious, as if I'm being narcissistic, but if it happens, it happens. One of my goals when writing a story is a connection to the emotion of another. Not mere manipulation, but to connect to those powerful feelings that are already there. I know that some believe that emotion is a lower state and to frighten or inspire wonder or create fear or amaze or anything else to do with that nature is not as high a calling as stimulating someone intellectually. But I don't kowtow to snobs...
- Exploring a place I've never been.
I have not been to many different places. I only left the South when I was 21 years old. Yet there are many places I would love to travel to--to visit landmarks, eat new food, see colorful people, breathe different air. I like researching these places and trying to recreate them on the page so that I'm going on a journey.
- Expressing values, beliefs, and attitudes.
Not necessarily my own. I like studying why people are the way they are. The first thing I think about when I need a character for a story is her motivation. What drives her? What makes her tick? What made her tick that way? How did she come to believe that? How does she express her values. I even like delving into values and believes that are totally foreign to me. I like dissecting a society that could lead to certain attitudes and ways of life. These are things we don't usually question, yet act upon. We live them. I like finding out what we live for.
- Feeling satisfaction.
Yay, five! Doing something that I'm getting better at every day feels like an accomplishment, as if I'm fulfilling my higher purpose. When I write I feel as if I'm reaching towards my destiny and all that rah rah.
- Communicating to a wide audience.
I can have one-sided conversations with others. I have examined each word, throwing out the ones that don't fit my needs and rebuilding meaning, intention, and circumstance. I love knowing exactly what I mean and want to say and then sharing it with someone else.
- Discovering myself.
We don't know ourselves as much as we'd like, at least I feel that way. In the struggle to convert instinct and thought into words, I find out who I really am. Stories are like arguments and debates for and against certain ways of life. I like figuring out what side I'm on. I like getting to know me better.
There you have it. These aren't all the reasons I love to write, but all I will ramble on about here.